After reading Bookish Penguin’s blog and an old livejournal post I did years ago I realized how different my life is today from what I thought my life would be like as a child. When I was quite young I wanted to be a nurse. I have always loved helping people and thought that that is what nurses did. I wanted the cute white outfits they would wear in the movies. Unfortunately later in life I realized that I would have to work with blood. I have a loooong lasting phobia of blood and operations. Funny how when you are younger you don’t realize certain things.
After realizing this, I wanted to be a ballet dancer. I had been taking classes for as long as I could remember and loved it. I loved the feeling of expressing myself through dance. BUT I also wanted to be an FBI agent. I had always (and still am) been a fan of solving things. Be it a movie, puzzle, game or novel. I have a quick mind when it comes to solving things and like to think outside the box. When I first met K he would usually be annoyed at me because I would know the outcome of a “who did it” movie in the first 20 minutes of a film. Now a days he tries to beat me to the outcome. Sometimes he can, but usually I win. Unfortunately, an FBI agent/ballet dancer is not what I ended up being. I was told due to my knees (after years of dancing) that I would sooner or later need an operation if I kept going to the rate I was. I never wanted to be a desk agent, so I never went through with it. I still to this day have problem with my knees, but never went for the operation.
Those are just a couple of the things that I wanted to be as a child. I still think of things I would like to be. I have never let that childhood wonder go. I want to be a baker. I want to own my own coffee shop. I want to be a chef. I want to be a travel writer. I want to pen my own novel. I still continue to want to dance. I know that I may not accomplish any of these or I may accomplish some, but I am glad to know I still can look forward and not worry about where it may lead me. No matter where I am going, I know I will want to be there.